He is probably pleasing some other girls now. quick and active.

Why cannot I move forward with my life? Emily told me it takes time, time, time, which is in proportion to how much devotion and love into the past.

I am telling myself to take my time to make myself feeling better. It is the time I should indulge myself, try anything I want to do that I did not get a chance to do, sleep a lot, go to museums, concerts, watch any shows that interest me, buy myself flowers...